Carolyn
28 December 2020
06.00 pm
Pre-war Walk-up Apartment, Singapore

Disembodiment is not my plan

Dance, somatic yoga therapy​​​​​​​ I am not one for New Year’s resolutions. I make so many new plans in any given year that there really is no need for them. There was one plan, though, that was particularly important for me in 2020. It was a plan to rid myself of anorexia; the eating disorder that has plagued me since the age of 14. Anorexia disembodies. To be disembodied is to be in a very lonely place. Things that happen in this lonely place go unnoticed. Because they’re so ignored. The tightness in the shoulders. The dull ache in the small of the back. The diminishing sense of self. To be disembodied is to be fundamentally disconnected. The cognitive self commandeers control over the somatic self. To be disembodied is not my plan. As I loosen the tightness in my shoulders, unravel the dull ache in my back and expand in my sense of self, I’m able to pay it forward.

Dance, somatic yoga therapy​​​​​​​

I am not one for New Year’s resolutions. I make so many new plans in any given year that there really is no need for them.  

There was one plan, though, that was particularly important for me in 2020. It was a plan to rid myself of anorexia; the eating disorder that has plagued me since the age of 14.

Anorexia disembodies.

To be disembodied is to be in a very lonely place. Things that happen in this lonely place go unnoticed. Because they’re so ignored.

The tightness in the shoulders. The dull ache in the small of the back. The diminishing sense of self.

To be disembodied is to be fundamentally disconnected. The cognitive self commandeers control over the somatic self.

To be disembodied is not my plan.

As I loosen the tightness in my shoulders, unravel the dull ache in my back and expand in my sense of self, I’m able to pay it forward.

Keywords:

Dancing, Eating, Play, Resting, Walking. Embody, Acknowledge, Accept, Pamper, Boundaries, Connection, Empowerment, Nourishment, Unity, Whole